I’ve Forgotten How to Run

August 10, 2015

“I hope this doesn’t come out the wrong way, but I’m so glad to hear you say that. I thought I was the only one.”

These were the words a friend of mine said to me after I shared with her how I’ve been feeling running lately. I opened up to her about everything – about how all my easy paced runs feel tortuously hard. How I have to walk during every run that’s longer than 3 miles outside. How my current pace to survive is what my recovery pace was just six months ago.

I told her I feel like I’ve forgotten how to run.

“Me too,” she said.

I’m not alone. She’s not alone. You’re not alone. I can’t tell you how many of my coaching clients and running friends have shared about their struggles with hitting paces and workouts in the heat and humidity this summer. We go through ups and downs as runners. We can be on top of the world at the end of one training cycle and then be in the back of the pack quicker than we can say “personal best.”

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Admittedly, I’ve always loathed running in the heat. Give me 25 degrees over 85 degrees (Fahrenheit) any day of the week. I knew moving to Florida as summer was ushering itself in would not be easy, but I didn’t expect to feel like this. I thought it would be hard, but that it would make me stronger. Tougher. Instead, I’m the complete opposite. My husband thinks it’s all mental – that I’ve decided I can’t do it and therefore I’m struggling. I wish it was that easy. My body has just been hitting a wall around three or four miles. Outside, my heart rate is higher and my perceived effort is harder. When I run indoors on the treadmill, it’s a little different. Still challenging but bearable. I can hit faster paces without feeling the need to walk.

Running is the most empowering and yet most humbling sport. Right now, running and I are in a disagreement, but I’m hoping we’re going to kiss and make up soon. There are things I can be doing to improve my current circumstances, and I’m going to commit to them during the next two months:

  • Run earlier. I simply haven’t been running early enough or getting up early enough to get some fuel and water in my system so I can run early. I’m going to commit to getting up earlier and meeting a friend of mine at least twice a week to run before the sun comes up. Running earlier coupled with running with a partner and not running on an empty fuel tank always make me run better.
  • Get access to a treadmill. Since I’ve been moving around a lot the past few months while our house is being built in Tampa, I don’t have a regular gym membership or access to a treadmill like I’ve always had. I’m going to get a short-term gym membership so I can run on the treadmill whenever I want. This will prevent me from making excuses or skipping a run when I know mentally it may be too hot for me to feel productive.
  • Be more structured. I’ve been doing whatever I want whenever I want when it comes to running and fitness this year. Although this is my year of running for fun, not having a true plan makes it easy for me to shorten my runs or not run as much as I can or should. I’m running a half marathon at the beginning of October. Although it will be just for fun, I don’t want to feel the way I’m feeling now during that race. I’m putting a structured plan together for myself for the next seven weeks. No more fly by the seat of my pants. While it has been fun, it is no longer serving me well from a physical or mental perspective.

Above all else, if you’re struggling like me right now, don’t forget why you’re doing this. Don’t forget that there is always a good mile ahead, even when it feels like we’ve banked a thousand bad ones already. Continue finding the joy in the miles, even the hard ones. Xo

Have you ever felt like you’ve forgotten how to run? What areas are you struggling with most right now and how do you overcome them?

Comments

Rebecca

running in humidity is awful! It makes running so much harder. However I also find new/changing routines disruptive

As much as I would love to run – an ongoing injury on my left leg has kept me benched pretty much all summer. Super frustrating and I’m 99% sure I dropping my fall marathon despite the rest of me being totally ready to train.

rUnladylike

Nooo! I’m so sorry you are going through an injury in your left leg. What is even worse than running in humidity is not being able to run at all due to injury. I will be thinking about you and hoping for a speedy recovery so you can run (pain-free) very soon. xoxo

Mary

Ugh, I HATE running in the heat. I moved to SoCal for the sun and weather, and when summer hits- my running just drops off. I hate it. Why wake up at 3am to be out running by 4am when it is STILL 75+ degrees?! I’d rather just plan for winter/spring runs.

Karen

I’ve felt this way since my half marathon in April. It’s like my feet don’t know what they are doing, my legs can’t keep up and my mental state is in some other state. Through that, I’ve somehow injured my knee so it’s all walking for the near future. I think I’ve decided the summer will be what it is and come fall, a new season will kickstart it back up:(

Beth

You know where I am! And you’ll be back in no time. I have no doubts. Xoxo

kristin | W [H] A T C H

i have felt absolutely zapped by the heat and humidity this summer. my husband always seems to bounce back after bad runs because he has this great habit of telling himself that his next run is going to be great. i think that he literally convinces himself and then brings the good run into being. so, this has sort of become my mantra too — bad run is done and now i have teed myself up for a breakthrough run. wishing you good miles ahead.

Laura @ This Runner's Recipes

I’ve definitely been there – a couple years ago, after a couple super stressful semesters of grad school, I felt like I was moving at a glacial pace. Ups and downs, just like you said. Sounds like you have a strong plan and your running will be back in no time!

Allie

I think I told you I was feeling exactly like this in New Hampshire. I had my first good run in the heat today but it was only 3.5 miles. I’ll take it!!! I also bought new running shoes that I desperately needed (Brooks Ghost 8!) and just trying to take it one run at a time. Hang in there and I will too!! 🙂

Richard

After a week of running in Florida last week, I feel your pain. Even at 6am, it was 80 degrees and humid. I found that my heart wanted about 15 more beats per minute to maintain my recovery pace. This is the only reason that it feels good to be home. While it gets hot and humid here in Cincinnati, I can run in the 60s at 6am.

Angie

I am training for my first marathon so this is the first summer I have logged a lot of running miles in July and August. I live in Philly and tge humidity has been zapping me. I too feel sluggish and slow. But I know that when fall comes, my pace will pick up. So hang in there. I also ran today without a Garmin as I knew the mileage points. I had no idea of my pace but ran my perceived exertion. No Garmin means no disappointment in my pace. Try it!

rUnladylike

I’m super excited for you and your first marathon Angie! After 8 marathons I think I’ve decided that I want to run spring marathons from here on out, however I have a few fall races still on my bucket list which will mean more Florida/summer running ahead. I hope training is going well. Can’t wait to hear about it. xo

Kristin

I came across your blog thanks to your interview with Matt Jonson, and I just wanted to say I moved to Florida in June this year, and before that I was recovering from a foot injury. Both of these factors have decreased my pace dramatically (1:30-2:00/mile), and it’s incredibly frustrating. I’m trying to focus just on how I feel and reveling in the small accomplishments, but some days it’s hard for me to feel good about a run with an average pace of 12:30 or 13:00.

rUnladylike

Hi Kristin! Thanks so much for stopping by runladylike.com. I’m glad you found me and nice to meet you virtually. Thanks also for sharing what you are going through. We are all dealing with the heat and humidity … we’re in it together! Can’t wait for fall and winter running 🙂 Keep it up! xo

Abby @ BackAtSquareZero

Every time I come back post injury I feel like I forgot and am starting over.

Sandra Laflamme

And sometimes its great to just take a break for a bit and try something new like swimming or cycling! I have totally been there!

Carly @ Fine Fit Day

Oh Jes, I hear you on this!! It’s so extra hard to motivate yourself when you’re already struggling. I really don’t know how you’re doing it in FL humidity, but I think your very early morning plan is going to work and having the treadmill access will help, too.

Natalie

I know how you are feeling! I haven’t run in so long due to my injury and I can’t wait to get back out there. There are definitely days that I feel like “what if I’ve forgotten how to run?” I know that I haven’t really forgotten, but running is truly my friend. I miss my friend so much 🙂
Some days I feel like even though I haven’t forgotten how to run, how will it feel to train for a marathon again? It’s such a journey…
I think you have a great plan to run in the early morning. Fall will be here soon!!! 🙂